Cold Turkey:

Moving on.
It's just a chapter in the past.
But don't close the book, just turn the page.

So yeah I'm pretty much a broken record these days, and i tried fixing that this week actually this revelation sorta hit me yesterday...Why pine over someone i can never be with? know what i mean, like that one person that you can never truly get over, trust me has hard as i tried, i practically forced myself to develop feelings for other guys but then i struck gold, at least some thing like that. See as i previously mentioned i switched school, anyways i liked this dude J.M and its kind of weird how it happened, freshmen year it was second semester and this guy was in my class for two weeks already and i never noticed him and then all of a sudden he was all i saw in class, ha ha but not in like a creeper/stalker kind of way..i would embellish but I'd rather not seeing as it would go against my "DON'T THINK ABOUT HIM" promise-all i have to say is that i haven't meet a sweeter,funnier, smart, super cute guy to this point, guys with these qualities but not all of them, yes i know that's asking for too much- anyways I'm now sadly realizing going cold turkey sucks big time! But now at my new school there was this guy in my English class, and hes kinda funny and cute actually he is cute and funny and all around he doesn't seem like a bad guy. but that's beside the point, it kind of felt like we had a connection at some point, i would catch him glancing at me and he the same. We'd have thoughts movie like moments where your eyes lock, etc... you get the point and then like a few weeks later i get on facebook and the first update i see is that two minutes ago he just got into a relationship, WTF MUCH!? so i shrugged it off and they like apparently break up like 3 weeks later...whose fault? i have no idea and the same shit starts happening again in English...so my Revelation yesterday was to just pretend i feel nothing for him except friendship and i just wanna say it sucks, which is taking a toll on me, because I'm generally a bubbly, super happy person to the point where its board line annoying. Uh plus to top it all off, Track and Field is legit killing me, on random days we do these drills in the sickly hot as hell temperature.

Too legit to quite,

bee :)